I deserve it all
So I just remain in silent and let everyone blame me.
=')
I hate myself now.
I dont know what the fuck im doing now.
Can I just walk to the road and let the car go over me?
I know you dont like it.
But I really feel so.
Things that I think,
Things that I did.
are just out of my expectation.
Im stupid, Im dumb, Im idiot.
Im the most bloody full one.
Im just nothing now.
My SELFISH KILLS MYSELF
I may Fuck off I know.
Im just waiting for a accident to come through me.
I've tears enough.
I've suffer enough.
And I know so do you.
I make you moody every time.
If I leave, maybe everything will turn better someday.
=''')
ANYWAY, I MISS YOU
Boy, Im going KB later.
you have to take good care of yourself, k?
I will miss you de.
You know the feeling I have now just like 2 years ago.
when you gonna leave me and dont wanna contact me.
This time, I afraid it happen again.
I know you say you not wanna leave me, just back to friend.
But I dont want. I really dont want.
I just wanna couple with you, I dont wanna be friend.
OH, I not suppose to say this out.
but, i feel like saying.
you can just ignore at the moment.
after I come back from KB, i go see you, k?
Im sorry. I really miss you and worry about you much.
and not I dont wanna go to you, it's just my mom dont let to and no transport.
Im waiting for you msg all the time.
I really miss you, boy.
Just now I went to your profile.
Your hubbies and loves one has changed.
and there's no me.
I cried.
Izit too much make you feel irritating?
I know you dont like the person that you feel irritating to disturb you.
So thats why I wont text you and wait for your msg even that I miss you much.
I have to go now. Take Care my boy.
I miss you. I Love you.
=')
dear, oh dear.
I miss you much.
WONG PIAU FONG
I MISS YOU!
Dear, I really dont know what to do.
what had I did wrong?
Yes, Im wrong in loving two person
but now the thing you mad on me i really dont know what is it.
mad of me cause when you open yours eyes im not beside you?
mad of me cause i cant go see you?
Do you think I really dont wanna to see you? =(
my mom dont wanna fetch me to what can I do?
you know actually tues and fri my mom can fetch me go?
and cause of she saw the status that you write
the one cut nail de.
she feel weird, and not feel like going anymore.
Boy, do you really think that a normal girl's friend to help a guy cut nail there's nothing?
you know what?
if the girl change to lulu , i wont that mad.
i hate siah wen hui since form two.
when she went to visit you, i ad keep in silent and let it be.
cause you have right to be friend with those you wan.
but when you tell me she help you to cut nail, i really feel weird.
will a girl cut nail for a normal friend guy?
sure that i wont. it's weird.
mad of me cause i selfish?
Yes, im selfish.
im selfish cause i dont wanna lost two.
but now, i just want you.
and you pushing me out.
after the accident, i know that i dont wanna just be friend with you
i wanna take care you for the rest of my life
i want you.
you know sometime i was blaming myself?
if that day i let you go earlier, maybe you wont get into accident.
when i know the news that you accident, i really cry out.
that time mom was beside me. i just dont care everything and cry out.
i was afraid losing you. if you really leave, i dont know what will I do.
i was thinking, why im not the one who get accident?
then everything wont be like now.
from now on, i wont disturb you.
i will wait until you miss me, feel like wanna text me that time,
only reply you.
But I will always miss you.
please dont think that i dont wanna go and see you.
i wanted badly, just no transport and mom dont let, especially when she saw the status.
我恨不得每天在你身边
you know when you in hospital, every time im home i sure will look at the hospital from here.
I miss you, boy.
no worries, i wont disturb you le.
text me or call me when you miss me ba.
Im going back KB tomorrow, today i wanted to go and see you.
but you say you wanna rest, and no need i go.
nvm. i deserve it.
you know when I wake up there's no your msg, i feel like wanna cry out?
nvm. nvm~ i will try to used to it.
ad few days didnt hear you call me dear, say you miss me and love me.
i miss it much.
but nvm. really nvm.
i deserve all this.
Just wanna let you know that,
I Miss you always.
I Love you no matter what.
I wont let go anymore.
not this time.
i swear.
I want you badly.
take care of yourself
I Love You.
=')
